Thursday, December 31, 2009

recently...

i have been such a slacker!! just been a lil bit busier here lately! we moved to san antonio on december 4th and we like it here so far! the first weekend we were here we did a little exploring and checked out the alamo and and the river walk! nicholas loved the alamo bc he is really into history. of course i love the riverwalk...lots of great places to eat and lots of cute shops! we also took a day trip to fredericksburg texas...that place is awesome! it is in the heart of the hill country and it's beautiful! we visited our first winery/vineyard and had a great experience! i found my favorite wine called jackass blush! its amazing! we are planning a trip to the hill country with my sis and heath at the end of january! we cant wait!

i started my job at cristus santa rosa childrens on december 7th! i really like it there and everyone is soooo nice! unfortunately i am having issues with my texas livense at the moment! it has been soooooo frustrating. my temporary license expired at midnight on december 30th and i was scheduled to work the 30th and 31st. i will not be able to work again until next week sometime. i had everything turned in on time so none of it is my fault...thankfully! it has just been a big mess! nicholas started working this week with the methodist hospital system. he will be working at the specialty and transplant hospital and the main methodist hospital.

we did go home the week of christmas and it was wonderful!! of course i did not want to come back to texas, but i did very well and havent cried at all! we had a great christmas with our families! the pardens came up to our house and stayed a couple of nights! it was fun spending time with them! my sis and heath were able to home the whole week too! of course we were pretty busy the whole week but it was just nice being at home! we really miss our house, families and friends!

we are getting more used to this traveling thing! we have both already become much stronger individuals and have learned a lot about ourselves! our faith in the Man upstairs continues to grow soooo much each day! He is really taking care of us! His mercy and His grace are incredible!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

San Antonio!!!!

that's our next stop!! it is actually where we wanted to go in the first place, but it didnt work out! i have a job waiting on me at cristus santa rose childrens hospital. im am very excited about it, but a lil nervous at the same time! since i havent really worked in 3 months. i did work, but not in a busy setting like i am used to. i just hope all of my skills come rushing back to me! it is a level 3 nicu (the largest like uab), and has about 45 beds. please pray that it is a good experience. right now nicholas doesnt have a permanent contract (guaranteed hours). he does have a contract with an agency and will be working prn/as needed. although i do believe he will be able to work a good bit and we will be able to get the monthly stipend, which is really nice! he did have an offer from a hospital, BUT they were not going to let him be off for Christmas and that is a must! i believe it will all work out in the long run!

we have heard from lots of people that we will love it there! we also wanted to go to austin, and we will only be an hour south of there! we will be moving next friday! our housing has already been set up! we would love for anyone to come visit!!!! thank you all for your prayers...it's what gets us through each day!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

it was somewhat of a weird day today!! nicholas and i both usually work thanksgiving so we can be off for christmas. of course this year, i wasnt working.

we actually had our big thanksgiving last sunday at my sisters house in lafayette louisiana. nicholas and i headed down there last thursday when he got off work! we were soooo excited to get out of town for a few days...molly was too! my parents got there on friday with their yorkie allie. molly was sooo excited to see all of them! she was depressed the first couple days after we got back to dallas. she missed all the attention she got! we had an incredible, fun time while we were there! it was nice to rest, eat, and just be in the same room as my family! we were sad that we didnt get to see his family this week but they will be coming to our house for christmas! i did try to be a good wife today and prepare a small thanksgiving meal. we had leftover turkey and dressing from last weekend. i made green beans and sweet potato fries. i also made an apple crisp with icecream. we had a nice romantic, candlelit dinner before nicholas went to work! it was actually quite cozy and nice!

we have sooooo much to be thankful for this year! i am thankful for my faith and my relationship with the Man upstairs, my wonderful family, all of my friends who i miss terribly, but most of all my health! this time last year is when i had my first stomach pain experience. it was after i ate thanksgiving dinner at work! i was taking care of baby Gabe and i remember at about 3:30am i started feeling bad. i just thought it was something i ate. after a couple of days, i decided something wasnt right. we were actually having thanksgiving at our house with my parents and in-laws on saturday, but unfortunately nicholas and i spent the morning at the doctors office. that was when it allllll started. i feel like this year we are doing thanksgiving and christmas all over again for the very first time. our first holidays as a married couple were not normal!

we are extremely excited about being home (at our house) for christmas this year! my sister and heath will be in town the whole week of christmas too! nicholas' family is also going to come up and spend christmas with us! i could not be happier! i cant wait to have ALL of our family together, surrounding us! it will be our first christmas in our house. we will be going home december 20th, so it will be crazy getting all the decorating done as soon as we get there! i cant wait to decorate...even though it will just be for a week!

for the next week i guess i will just enjoy not working and start packing this place up! pray everything fits in our car! we have accumulated a few more things since we've been here! it will be interesting!

lots of catching up to do!!

first of all...thanks to my sweet daddy we currently have a computer. he is letting us borrow his until we can buy a new one!

i dont even know where to begin! it has been way too long! we only have one more week here and dallas and we are very excited about that!! we are so tired of looking at concrete and tall buildings! dont get me wrong, we have had a good time and interesting experience here, but we are ready for a change of scenery! the last couple of months have been MUCH better than the first! i actually choose to be happy each day and havent been depressed at all! one of the biggest things that has helped it that we found an incredible church to go to! it's fellowship church in grapevine, tx. we are going to miss it soooooo much when we leave! it is led by ed and lisa young, you may have heard of them. they write lots of books! i have been able to be a part of their incredible womens ministry called flavour! it's all about being a "warrior woman" for God! i have learned sooo much!

like i said...we only have one week left!! there are a few things i might miss about this place! i will definitely miss downtown grapevine...all the little shops and restaurants are so much fun! i will also miss three dog bakery...it's a little boutique/bakery just for pets. thats where i got molly's birthday cake! i will also miss Kroger...that's where i buy the BEST apples in the world! they are cameo apples. my mom and sister cant find them anywhere. i just hope our next location has them. that's all i can think of that i'll miss at the moment. really not much!!

i have gotten to work a couple of times at centennial medical center in frisco, tx. it was a great experience. it was a really nice private hospital. they actually have a concierge service for their employees. they will go get lunch/coffee, go to your house and walk your dog, take your car to the shop, pick your kid up from school, etc. im pretty sure they are the only place on this earth that does that. i think it's kinda crazy...but nice. i did have to work in a well baby nursery one day and it was terrible! i will never do it again! i spent 2 hours helping a mom breastfeed her twins. it was definitely an experience! im an expert now!

nicholas has enjoyed working at baylor grapevine, but is ready for something different! he is always so bored at work. he has made some new friends though.

we still miss home terribly! we havent been back once since we've been here...i cant believe it! we have enjoyed our time here in dallas. we have learned a lot about ourselves as individuals and as a couple! we have grown soooo much! i know i have already become a much stronger person than i was 3 months ago! i cant wait to see what God has in store for us!

Monday, October 19, 2009

back where i come from....

mom...this one's for you!! kenny chesney says it best!

In the town where I was raised,
the clock ticks and the cattle graze.
Time passed with amazing grace
back where I come from.

You could lie on a riverbank,
or paint your name on a water tank,
miscount all the beers you drank
back where I come from.

Back where I come from
is where I'll be when it's said and done.
I'm proud as anyone,
That's where I come from.

We learned in Sunday school
who made the sun shine through.
Who made the moon shine too,
back where I come from.

Blue eyes on a Saturday night,
tan legs in the broad daylight.
TV’s, they were black and white,
back where I come from.

Back where I come from
is where I'll be when it's said and done.
I'm proud as anyone,
that's where I come from.

Some say it's a backward place
narrow minds on the narrow way
but I make it a point to say
that's where I come from.

That's where I come from,
I'm an old alabamian,
I’m proud as anyone,
that's where I come from.

i had a little inspiration on my way home after dropping nicholas off at work. for some reason thats the only song i wanted to listen to! i am learning to like it here in dallas. it is just the biggest place i have ever been! i dont know if it's quite what we expected it to be! we were expecting more "country"...i think. it's great though and i am going to be happy wherever we are! there's just NO PLACE LIKE HOME!! by the way...'home is where your MOM is'. i love you mommy!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

a beautiful lady!!

on monday after a weekend with my sis, we found out that granny (nicholas' moms mom) had passed away that morning. even though it is somewhat expected it is always a shock! thats when the crazy day from hell started! we immediately began trying to decide what to do and how to get home. oh yea...and what to do with suzy who was still at our apartment. bless her heart...we had to drop her off early at the convention center. really i dont think she minded. it was at the gaylord texan resort which is unbelievable.

back to our day. we started looking at flights. well for one person it was like almost 700 dollars...so for both of us and molly it would've been over 1500 dollars, which we do not have. unfortunately...our car was in the shop for the third time in 3 weeks (air conditioning problems). we had had a rental car since saturday. we asked about driving the rental car home. that was going to be an ungodly amount of money and not mention...it was a focus...not a very comfortable 10 hour ride! i started stressing out just a lil bit! we went to the car place and pretty much told them we HAD to have our car today! they said we could have it ready by 5pm. we were ready to go at lunch time!! long story short we headed out of dallas around 5:15pm...yes...rush hour. it took us over an hour to just get out of dallas. we made it to excel at about 4:15am on tuesday morning. it was a VERY long drive!

nicholas was VERY close to his grandmother! she is really the only granparent he grew up knowing. i had actually grown quite close to her myself! i loved her and she loved me. granny didnt like just anybody! i felt very blessed to be able to call her my granny! she was a beautiful, kind, caring, and very generous lady! one of my favorite memories of her was at our wedding. her just being there was a huge blessing, but she had such a wonderful happy time! she was so excited for us! she looked absolutely stunning!

she was also a very very funny woman!! she loved her bubble gum, snuff, gawdy jewelry, and gummie bears! her daughters, granddaughters, and great granddaughter all got to choose some of her jewelry to keep! i inherited some beautiful rings and earrings! i cant wait to wear them! she was a beautiful lady and she always had beautiful things! the gummie bears and bubble gum were pretty much all eaten during our visit! nicholas sent some snuff and gum to heaven with granny!

i was very excited about getting to go home...to excel for a few days. its terrible that it was for this reason though! although i knew i would have a hard time coming back. my parents were able to take off work and come down for the funeral. it was great getting to see them and spend a couple of days together! it was one of the greatest visits to excel i think we have ever had! mom and dad went on their first scout ride and had a great time! molly was also very excited about seeing her nana and papa! we really rested and enoyed our time with family. of course all of nita's family was there and some of pop's (nicks dad). it was great getting to spend time with alan and whitney!!

like i told whitney and nicholas...i dont know what it's like to lose a mom and i hope i never do, but i do know exactly what it's like to lose a grandmother who you are very close too! it brought back a lot of memories for me! it's hard to believe but it does get easier! i still dream and think about my grandparents all the time! they are a part of my daily life, but the grieving is gone! i still talk to them and i know they, and granny are now looking down on us, and they are VERY proud of us! that's encouraging! they were all such huge cheerleaders for us! i am sooooo blessed to still have one of my cheerleaders! i love my mawmaw and miss her very much! nita actually gave my mom a ton of granny's clothes to take to her! she takes her a few pieces everday to try on. when i asked mawmaw about them she was very excited about them! she told mom she is so blessed and will never have to buy clothes again! that makes me feel good to know that granny's beautiful belongings are being put to great use!

i already miss granny very much and i know there are a lot of other people that do too! she has a huge family! lots of brothers and sisters, nieces and nephews, grandchildren, 2 daughters, and several great grandchildren, who all love her dearly! i know it's gonna be hard for a while especially with the holidays coming up! PLEASE pray for our family! nita was VERY VERY close to her mom and took amazing care of her! she will be greatly blessed and will have many many crowns in heaven!

*fun at the fair*

okay...the texas state fair has to be the biggest state fair in the country!! it was huge! my sister flew into dallas on friday september 25 to spend a few days with us before her conference. we had a blast! we went to the opening night of the state fair. the fair grounds is around the cotton bowl! of course i pulled out my cowboy boots and blue jean skirt for this event! it was fun eating fattening food like funnel cakes and nachos! they had fried butter, but we couldnt bring ourselves to try it. of course i just knew it would feel funny in my mouth! that's the biggest turn off, or maybe the biggest turn off is that it would clog my arteries and i might die. we also watched the pig races. i dont know what it is about pigs running in a circle that is soooo darn cute and hilarious! it was very entertaining! we didnt ride any rides bc they all went round and round at thousands of miles per hour...maybe not that fast. i dont do round and round and straight up and down, but i sure do love roller coasters! go figure. we did play some games. nicholas played lots of games! it was fun being a kid again! i wanted to win a texas longhorn and i did, so i was very happy! suzy got lots of pics so i will try to post a few soon! i love it when she comes to visit bc she takes all the pictures. if it werent for her we wouldnt have any!

me and suz went to the pool on saturday while nicholas watched football. it was a beautiful day! for dinner i had my first sushi experience. i didnt try anything raw, but it was good. some of it felt funny in my mouth but overall it was a great experience!

catching up...

i got lots of catching up to do! our computer decided to finally die! luckily our the office at our apartment has a computer i can use! i do have my iphone but it's way too much trouble to do anything on it that involves lots of typing!

first of all...i was reading my last post. i saw where i typed that grapefest involved TONS of wine. well it did, but i didnt mean that we drank tons of it. to be honest...we didnt drink any!! im too cheap to pay to try different kinds of wine when there's really only one kind that i actually care for, and i really dont like that one kind all that much. okay...glad that's cleared up!
secondly...i said i was REALLY enjoying just being a wife! well i am, but the housework and only the housework is getting kinda old! i love to cook and make a nice home for me and my hubby, but i HATE doing laundry and i HATE unloading the dishwasher! i am sooooooo ready to find a job and get out of the apartment every now and then! most people know...there is a CURSE in my family! not everyone has the curse, but for some reason i got it! thanks mom and uncle dan! i have to clean my house and wash the bed sheets at least once a week if not more! and i mean seriously deep clean! if i dont...im in a horrible mood! speaking of...today is the day!! (poop...i dont wanna clean!!)

the job issue still continues! i have peed in a darn cup more times this week than i please! okay...just 3 times, but that's enough! EVERYTHING has been done for every agency that i have been working with. hopefully no more paperwork for a few days! PLEASE PLEASE PRAY that one of them calls me soon and says they need me and i can start orientation! i have been informed that we will not be able to be home for christmas unless i get a job and make some extra money. there's no way we could afford to be off for that long in between assignments. we have applied for our permanent california licenses, so we are thinking we might want to go to another city in texas next assignment if there is a need. we will see where God leads! i continue to have more faith than i ever though i could! i know He will provide for us in His perfect timing. Maybe there is a reason God wants me to rest right now! even though i am tired of resting...i know there's a reason for it!

we have almost been married a whole year! i cant believe it! as most of you know...we didnt really have the typical first year of marriage! it all started out with me getting pretty sick and having to have surgery! yuck! it is getting close to that time! maybe God is resting and healing my body so it doesnt happen again! i do believe with all of my heart that God is still healing me. in more ways than one! we chose not to find out if my left fallopian tube is still viable...i have faith that God is still healing that part of my body. one day we will know, but there's no need to know right now!

we need your prayers! i definitely need a job very soon! we also need clarity on what to do after this assignment! you all know that i have struggle being away from home, and i honestly believe deep down inside that nicholas is struggling too! he misses being away from home just as bad as i do. he just handles it all a lil bit better. if he wasnt so strong, we would be a total mess! he keeps me from coming apart! thanks for listening!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

i think im crazy...

or maybe im just a scaredy cat! it's 3am, im sitting on the couch, watching a hallmark movie thats 'on demand', molly is cuddled up in my lap (side ponytail and all), im pretty sure i just ate half a jar of green olives because i was hungry (no im not pregnant...i just like them), im tired, but nicholas is working his first night shift and i honestly dont wanna close my eyes. new place, new people...its kinda scary. so i guess i will just ramble for a lil while...

first of all...i have the most WONDERFUL husband in the world!!! obviously he makes me feel very safe...i am totally fine when he's here!! i have learned to accept the fact that i dont have a job at the moment...of course im still looking...but i am really enjoying being a wife right now!! i have had a much more positive attitude the last few days and they have been GREAT!

last friday we got out and went to grapefest! it was lots of fun! it involved TONS of wine, lots of good smelling, fattening food, good music (it seemed like every band sang at least 2 songs about alabama), lots of people, lots of shopping, it was GREAT! we had a good time! i ate a funnel cake for the first time in a long time...it was delicious!! i really wanted to go to the balloon festival in plano this past weekend but nicholas found out he had to work all weekend last thursday. usually i would have pitched a fit and been a child about it, but i was a big girl!! at least nicholas has a job! the state fair starts this friday and im really excited about going to that! i've never been to a state fair before!

oh yea...my sissy is coming into town this friday too!!! im sooooo excited! she is the best big sis! she has always taken care of me and she always knows what i need!

i've been cooking almost every night and it has been fun! it's fun trying to cook things with the limited amount of kitchen supplies i have here. we didnt bring a lot with us, so we went to walmart and bought the bare essentials. im learning to make-do! it is actually becoming a 'fun' challenge trying to do things around here! i can already tell this experience has been good for us! we are really enjoying being together...just us, literally...we know absolutely nobody!! we are learning to rely on each other and appreciate each other even more! i have also realized all of things i sometimes take for granted!

i got breakfast to cook in the morning for my hubby, so i guess i should lay down now! not go to sleep...just rest. im waiting up for him! goodnite!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

He will restore me!!

i wanted to share a bit of my devotional this morning and a little bit of what i have been struggling with...especially the past 2 weeks!! a song that has been in my head for a while now goes as follows...

"i will cast all my cares upon You. i lay all of my burdens down at Your feet. and anytime, i dont know, what to do. i will cast all my cares upon you."

i remember my daddy singing this song when i was a little girl and i have never forgotten it!

i have realized here lately that i am not as strong of a person as i thought i was! like many people, i struggle with trying to do things on my own. well...im here to tell ya...loud and clear...it's soooo not possible!! i have given up on trying to do things my way!! one of my favorite quotes is, "let go and let God." this morning i chose to read 1 Peter 5. i want to share part of it with you!

v5. "...God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble. v6. Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. v7. CAST ALL YOUR ANXIETY ON HIM BECAUSE HE CARES FOR YOU. v8. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. v9. Resist him, standing firm in faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. v10. And the God of all grace, who called you to His eteranal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. v11. To Him be the power for ever and ever. Amen. v14. Greet one another with a kiss of love. Peace to all of you who are in Christ."

i dont even know where to begin! first of all...i humble myself before God and my heart is open and receptive to Him! for the past couple of months, anxiety has been my middle name. NO MORE! i am laying it at Jesus' feet.

i am done trying to find a job on my own, im done trying to be the strong one, i am done trying to be the perfect wife, im done trying to live my life on my own! God is in total CONTROL!! Philipians 4:13 says, "i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." It's not just me...it's me and the man upstairs! we are a team!! i believe that "where God guides, He provides." He has brought nicholas and i to dallas texas for a very good reason! He is going to use us in a very special way. i have got to learn to chill out and let Him use me for His purpose! with God's help i will find a job, i can be strong, and i will be the best wife that i can be!!

my mom reminded me of something a couple of days ago. she reminded me that i am way too blessed to be so worried and stressed out about things! boy was that a wake up call! she is soooo right! i do miss home more than anyone could ever imagine, but look at what we have been blessed with! we have a wonderful family, a wonderful home, and wonderful friends...life couldnt get any better! i am learning to accept the 'NOW' and have faith and great hope for the future!

this doesnt mean that i cant cry when i feel like crying, or miss my family and our house...i have just given total control over to my Savior. This is a great and fun time in our lives, but it is also a HUGE learning experience! verse 10 said, "And the God of all grace, who called you to His eteranal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." i by no means feel that i am suffering, but i have definitely been struggling! i will give God glory in every aspect of my life and in return He is going to restore me and make me strong!

thanx for listening...Have a BLESSED day!!

*WUFSPA*

it is true...on monday september 14, molly went to the spa for the very first time!! she got herself a new hairdo and a pedicure!! she has been needing to be groomed for a while now, and i have tried to do it myself and got nowhere! i thought i should let a professional try. i found this place here in dallas called WUFSPA. i originally was looking for a place to take her for doggy daycare while my sis and heath were here. daycare didnt work out, but i thought hey...why not let her go to the spa for the morning. i honestly felt like a real 'mommy' when we took her! i was soooo nervous about leaving her and once we did, i couldnt stop thinking about her! it's sad i know. you may even think im a lil ridiculous!

when we got there she was very nervous bc there were lots of other dogs there for actual daycare. they all started barking when we walked in and molly wasnt too sure about it. the most CRAZY thing is that she wouldnt even eat a treat! nicholas and i even tried to get her to eat one of hers (i keep them in my purse) and she wouldnt do it. right then...i knew it might not go well! she never turns down a treat! i talked to the groomer lady and told her what i wanted! really i didnt know what i wanted...i just didnt want her to be butchered when we got back.

the lady called about 2:00pm and told us we could come get her! we were excited to see what she looked like! they told me she did pretty good but was a wiggle worm!! they said she didnt eat a treat the whole time she was there. i guess molly was pretty mad at us for taking her there! she looked adorable though!! she looks more like she did when she was a baby! she was sooooo excited to see us! she ate a treat when we got in the car of course! she knew she was safe!

i kinda check out the daycare area and decided i probly wouldnt ever take her there for daycare. they do seperate the dogs by size but some of the s/m dogs were a good bit bigger than her! i would definitely worry about her the whole time she was there. i would die if anything happened to her! the ladies at the spa loved molly and really want her to come back and play!!

you though i was ridiculous before, but now you're going to think im even more ridiculous! i am already planning her 1st birthday party!! she will be one on november 17th! she's growing up! i am really sad that we cant be at home for it though...all of her friends are back home! i think we are going to wait till thanksgiving to celebrate bc we will hopefully be at my sisters house! i found a doggy bakery here! they make really cute cakes! i thought i would get her one for her to share with allie (my parents yorkie). it's going to look like one of her first and favorite toys! it's a soft, pink, squeaky bone i got from molly and max in cahaba heights! i also have someone thats going to make her a lil birthday hat! she's going to hate the hat but love the cake!

she is extremely rotten i know, but she is soooo good for us! she definitely keeps my mind off of things. she always makes both of us laugh! she's the best!!

everyone needs a molly!!!!!!!!!!!!

unacceptable....

i know, i know...i have lots of cathching up to do!! as of august 18th we were no longer employees of uab! well...i took a leave but plan to terminate when the leave is up in october. all of our wonderful uab friends gave us both great parties and we miss them all soooo much!

the following weekend on august 22nd, my bestest friend ashleigh got married!! we had a great time! the wedding was beautiful! we couldnt be happier for her and chris!

the day after the wedding, sunday, august 23rd...i had a baby shower at my house for cathy barrett! it was the cutest baby shower ever. they set everything up on the back porch and it was very pretty! i told my neighbors we were trying to have every kind of party we could think of. we had a great turn out!

after all of that...we were gun-ho on finding a travel job! at this point we had heard nothing. we had been submitted to georgetown in D.C. but got turned down bc they wanted previous travel experience. the problem is...lots of people wanted previous experience! well...how are you supposed to get it if no one wants you! i was beginning to get worried and very stressed out!
nicholas had been submitted to baylor grapevine (pretty much in dallas) and i had been submitted to a baylor hospital in ft. worth. nicholas did an interview with his nurse manager on wednesday august 26th and accepted the job! we were very excited bc texas is where we wanted to go! we came out here hoping that the job in ft. worth would come through for me! unfortunately they decided not to post the job. now i am hoping for at least a prn/per diem job somewhere. there are TONS of hospitals in this area! PLEASE PRAY that something comes through! i am getting extremely bored! i think working would help keep my mind off of home! i may actually try to get a lil job somewhere else...like in a cute lil shop in grapevine!

so we thought we were going to have to be in dallas by september 8th. then found out the day after he accpted the job that we would have to be here the 2nd! needless to say...i freaked out!! we had it all planned out and it just turned it all upside down! we still kept our plan but had to put a rush on all the things we had to do back home and all the packing that had to take place! we started packing on aug 28th and finished up on the 29th...and headed out on the 30th.

we drove to excel to spend the night with his parents for a night. on the 31st we drove to lafayette, la to spend a night with suz and heath. on sept 1st we began our journey to dallas, tx!! we were very excited, but i was very emotional as well! we really had no idea what to expect!! we did know that we would be spending at least 4 or 5 nights in a hotel...which was okay, but then found out we would be there for 8 nights. it was horrible!! i never want to stay in a hotel again! the hotel was okay, but we were soooo cramped for way too long! we were going stir crazy...even molly!!! being in the hotel made me depressed. honestly...i had a couple of major breakdowns and wanted to come home! that's a whole other story!

the hardest part of being in the hotel was that your not supposed to leave your pet unattended. molly has become even more spoiled than she already was! which i didnt think was possible! we literally took her EVERYWHERE! restaurants, stores, the lake, downtown dallas, ft. worth stockyards, etc. it got to where it was stressful! i actualy felt like a mom that needed some time to herself...away from the kid! bless her heart...she couldnt help it! she was extremely well behaved everywhere we went. we actually got TONS of compliment on how good she was and of course how cute she is!

on september 2nd, nicholas had to take a test. if he passed he would keep the job...if not, we had to go home! on sept 3rd we found out he passed!!! thank the good Lord above!!

*!* Here is what keeps me going...WHERE GOD GUIDES, HE PROVIDES...*!* God has put us here for a reason! i will admit...at times i have been a total disaster! i think i cried at least once everyday for the first week! i really hate to admit that! we have never lived this far from home and its very hard!! now i know how my sister and sister-in-law feel! its not a comforting feeling know that all of your friends and family are soooo far away! BUT it is comforting knowing that Jesus is right by our sides every step of the way! He is definitely protecting us and getting us through! Nicholas has been awesome! he has been very patient with me and understanding!

dont get me wrong...we are having a WONDERFUL, FUN time! it's just different and it's taking some getting used too! we have already done sooo much since we got here! okay...im extremely sleepy and we have to get up early for church in the morning! this will have to be...

TO BE CONTINUED....

Thursday, August 6, 2009

life gets in the way!!

sorry...i have been a slacker! actually...we have just been extremely busy and had a lot on our minds! i dont even know where to pick up!

i guess the most exciting news is that we are leaving uab, and we are gonna start travelin in about 3 weeks! our last day there is august 18th. as of today we have been submitted to georgetown university hospital in washington d.c. i would love to go there and nicholas has never been, so that makes it more exciting! how it works: the travel agency submits us, the hospital calls to do an interview, we have a lil time to think about if its worth going there, then we make our decision! we really want to go to texas bc we could be a lil bit closer to heath and suz, but for some reason its just not workin out. i would also love to go to the east coast/northeast! really...we will go wherever God wants us to go. nicholas wants to go to alaska and surprisingly there are two jobs available at the same hospital, but i think that's just a lil to far away to go our first time.

we traded our lexus IS 250 in on an expedition! it was soooo hard to leave that car on the lot, but i love the space in the expedition! we had to do something to have more room when we travel. i am somewhat high maintenance! i pack the car out just for a week vacation. i cant imagine how im gonna pack to go somewhere for thirteen weeks!

everyone asks...what are ya'll gonna do with molly. well...dummies...we are going to take her with us! i wouldnt go if we couldnt! she is our baby and we are more attached to her than i ever thought we would be! she is wonderful! heath and i think she is a little "marley". she is hilarious! her favorite thing to do here lately is literally get in the dishwasher and lick the dirty dishes! she loves it! she NEVER gets people food, so we let her do it. it's a treat for her. she also LOVES to play outside! she loves to play with her ball and frisbee. it's a small frisbee...just her size! she also chases every bird, butterfly, and insect that she sees. oh yea...she jumped in the river several weeks ago. i guess she wanted to go for a swim. she's a great lil swimmer. nicholas jumped in and got her though. she's CRAZY, but she's the sweetest, most loving thing you will ever meet.

the other exciting thing coming up is ash par's wedding!! its august 22nd! we are having her bachelorette party in nashville this weekend! it's gonna be lots of fun! i think i've gotten a lil carried away with it! she's gonna be the most beautiful bride ever!

we still absolutely love our house! we love living on the water. we gave up on looking for a boat for now. we decided there's no sense in letting one just sit around while we travel. maybe we can get one when we come back and settle down. it is beautiful here...rain or shine!

i really need to go perform my wife duties such as wash clothes, toilets, etc. i will try to update more often!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

newlyweds and paint...

i honestly believe that if you can stay married after painting any part of your house...you can survive anything! although my mom said, "try building a house." i know she's probably right!

the latest happenings in the parden household includes painting and redecorating our master bedroom. we painted our bedroom chocolate and our bathroom green. nicholas probly wanted to kill me before we even started painting because there are wayyyyy to many shades of green to choose from! it all turned out beautifully...i will try to get some pictures up soon! i am doing most of my decorating through pottery barn and flea markets.

i put up green drapes that match the bathroom walls perfectly. my bedding is white and cream with some green and brown accents. we want to use old lanterns and turn them into lamps to put on our nightstands...i would paint them cream. i have added other little touches here and there. there is still work to be done!

we had a yard sale a few weeks ago and it was a huge success! we have sold most of our stuff that we wanted to get rid of! i pretty much got rid of all the fake flowers that were in our house...thank goodness!! i am getting things done slowly but surely! i am having to learn that everything cant be done at once.

we absolutely LOVE our home! i always look forward to going home! we couldnt be more blessed!

im a slacker!!

i havent updated in forever!! i guess life has gotten in the way. another reason is both of our computers are old and wont work half the time. oh yea...the BIGGEST problem is molly wont quit chewing up the chargers! once i think she is out of her puppy phase, she proves me wrong! today i caught her playing with one of my bathing suits...you never know what your gonna find her doing! heath and i think she is like a small version of marley (from marley and me). she is hilarious and crazy, but soooo loving and sweet!

last week was the BEST! my parents, suz and heath, and nicholas and i went to gulf shores for 8 days! it was wonderful! although it was terribly hot! we had a great time playing in the ocean, eating, sleeping, laughing, i could go on forever! my mom says she did things she hasnt done in years such as playing in the massive waves and getting in the swimming pool! it was great to see her and my dad have such a fun, relaxing time! molly and allie went of course and they were both very well behaved! it was molly's first trip to the beach. it sucks that it is against the law to take her to the beach...i know she would've loved it!

i am so blessed to have such an amazing family! i am even more blessed to have a husband who fits in perfectly with them! nicholas and heath are a lot alike and they get along great! we were sad to have to come home on saturday!

Friday, May 22, 2009

its a wonderful life...!!

life couldnt get any better! we are still loving our new house and being able to go fishing whenever we want! wednesday was a great day after a stressful few days! slept late, then fished all afternoon and soaked up some sun!

nicholas' parents and gmom came to visit this past weekend. we had a great time doing nothing. i did cook a lot and visited my gmom but other than that, we didnt do too much!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Ms. MoLLy

is the most precious puppy on the face of the earth! she is growing up way too fast! i never knew we would be so attached to an animal! over the last couple of weeks she has lost 2 teeth, or at least thats all we have found. she has had one hair cut, and already needs another one. she has learned to sit! of course she is still totally potty trained to her puppy pads and to my knowledge has never used the bathroom outside. she is now sleeping in the bed with us because we love her way too much, but if you make her get in her bed she will. she has completely destroyed 2 stuffed animals by ripping their eyeballs off and gutting them. i bought her a rubbery fish toy and when you made him sqeak his tongue would stick out...she tore his tongue off the first day. when she sees herself in a mirror, window, or the tv she goes crazy! she is scared of her shadow and its really funny! she jumps on and off of anything and everything!! it's amazing! there is no way to describe how she jumps...you have to see it for yourself! i guess its cause she has long legs and is as light as a feather! she kind of takes after her mommy. long legs and kind of scrawny. she can stand up like a human forever...she looks like a small child. the cutest thing about her is that one ear stands straight up and one is still floppy. it makes her very unique. every now and then both of them will stand straight up. i am her cuddle buddy and daddy is her crazy play buddy. anytime she wants to lay down or just be a lap dog she is with me! even in the car...whether im driving or riding she is in my lap. she's like her aunt suzy...a car ride puts her to sleep. raw hide is her best friend...she will chew on a piece of raw hide, no matter what shape or form it is, for hours until it is all gone!

when we are sitting in our recliners in the living room watching tv, she stands right in the middle facing us like she is going to put on some sort of show. she will sit there forever just looking back and forth at us. she also loves to watch tv...especially cartoons! its really cute!

she LOVES our new house! she loves to play outside! she chases every bird, bug, butterfly, etc she sees. she loves to go down to the pier with her daddy to fish! luckily she has only jumped off the pier once and it was when the water was low so she didnt drown. she loves her daddy and he adores her more than you could imagine! she loves our neighbors dog buddy. he is a springer spaniel and he loves molly too. he just rolls over on his back and lets molly jump on him. supposedly buddy doesnt like any of the other dogs in the neighborhood.

she loves living close to nana and papa because they babysit her when we work. although we miss her terribly after working 3 nights and not seeing her! she loves going to their house and playing, or i guess a better word would be 'harrassing' their yorkie, allie. i think they spoil her worse than we do. she also loves going to visit her aunt bella. my in-laws westhighland terrier. of course she is about 3 or 4 times bigger than molly, but they play till they drop!! they are fun to watch until they start getting too rough! molly is tougher than she looks!

she will be 6 months old this month! time is flying by way too fast! we will be having her fixed soon! how we are going to keep her calm and from jumping all over the place i have no idea! we will need a tranquilizer!

we love her soooooo much! she is our baby and we treat her like one. she was the best decision ever! she makes us smile constantly. its really hard to discipline her! i cant imagine what its gonna be like when we have kids one day! i guess thats enough molly updates for now. if i think of anything else i will add it on!

life lately........

has been VERY busy and somewhat stressful!! it has been wayyy to long since i last blogged! we finally got our internet working at home, but the charger for my computer doesnt work half the time. hopefully we can get a new one soon! we are actually in excel alabama right now at my in-laws house! it's a nice get-away from all the business and craziness back home. i debated on whether coming or not due to my grandmother being sick.

she has been having a hard time for about the last 2 months now. she cant seem to get back on track and stay on track. it's really hard on my mom, who i wish i could be with 24/7 to help her out. my mom, grandmother, and i are all really close and we all want whats best for each other, but sometimes its hard not to be selfish and want whats best for ourselves! my mom thought she wanted to move maw-maw into her house and take care of her by herself. here's where the selfish part comes in...if she did that, i would practically lose my mom too! it would be a 24 hour a day job and it would be way to gruelling for her to do alone. i think we have decided and finally talked maw-maw into trying assisted living first while she is still capable of doing some things on her own. she is a precious and very grateful lady and she deserves the best care in the world!

it is the HARDEST thing in the world to see someone you love soooooo much be sick, and not be able to take care of themselves. the whole situation is like deja-vu all over again. we took care of my dads parents for 2 years while they were sick until Jesus decided to take them home! it was the hardest, most exhausting, BUT also the most rewarding 2 years of my life. of course it is my nature to want to be with them and do everything for them all of the time. i get that from my mom and dad. the hard part is that i, along with the rest of my family, work. i feel the same way my mom does, i wish i could just quit my job and take care of her, but that is not the right thing for us to do.

it is my wish for her to be able to go into assisted living and really enjoy the remaining years of her life. if she's happy there then we can visit whenever possible, which will probably be all the time, and really enjoy the time we spend with her. we wont be tired from trying to take care of her 24 hours a day. needless to say...the whole situation has been turned over to the Man upstairs and He is in total control! what's best for her and our family will be! i guess thats enough spilling for now! thanx for reading and understanding! please pray we will do the right thing!

Friday, April 10, 2009

home sweet home...

i LOVE home!! i never want to leave my house for anything! the drive to work is tiring but it is sooo worth the drive to go home to a beautiful house and a magnificent view of God's creation! i cant wait to go home every morning when i get off work! wanna know something crazy?? i have ALWAYS hated to clean. i do love for my house to be clean but i just dont like doing it! i have hard core cleaned my house twice in less than 2 weeks. i also do laundry more often! it's amazing! i guess it may wear off after the newness of everything wears off but i hope not. i actually enjoy cleaning our new house and that excites me! nicholas does a great job of helping me too! he is great at keeping the yard mowed and picked up...it looks great! i had never seen him mow grass before last week...he's really cute when he does it! we are having soo much fun!

jamie and jeff came by last sunday...it was great getting to see them! and its exciting that jeff is home for good now! we are ready for company so come see us anytime!

nicholas did very good today! he mowed the grass, cooked dinner, but more importantly he sold 2 bedroom suits, a tv, and a few other things to a guy in birmingham. he made us some money!! we were really excited to get rid of some things! maybe now i can park my car in the garage!!! mom and dad came over for dinner before i went to work. nicholas grilled fish, asparagus, and corn on the cob. it was delicious! mom brought me the cutest planter with gerber daisies in it! flowers make me very happy!

im kinda sad (really jealous) because my mom and dad are going to my sisters tomorrow. she and her husband live in louisiana! i really wish we were going with them. we have to work the beginning of next week and they arent coming back till wednesday.

the reason i havent been updating more frequently is because our internet isnt hooked up yet. hopefully they will come do it soon and i can update more! the last few times (including this time) i have been at work. i guess i should go feed my baby now!

HAPPY EASTER!!!!!!!

Friday, April 3, 2009

smooth move!!

wow...it has been way too long since i last updated! a lot has happened and we couldnt be happier or more excited! we closed on our house march 25...my bday and had a celebration dinner at the courtyard with my parents that night. we were really tired after working the night before though! we spent that night in our house for the first time! even though none of our stuff was there yet...it definitely felt like home! no apartment or townhouse has ever felt like home! we headed back to birmingham on thursday to finish packing...thankfully my parents came down that night and helped us out!

friday morning we hit the ground running! my parents were there with their yorkie, we of course were there with molly, and nicholas' parents were there with their westhighland terrier. do i even have to mention...it was a ZOO! our wonderful friend steven came to help load the truck too! we could not have done it without all of their help! we did not realize how much stuff/crap we had till we started trying to fit it on a the biggest moving truch we could find. it's crazy that two 24 year olds have that much stuff! i guess i should say "we are blessed".!! we finished loading the truck around 3:00 pm and headed to rainbow city (our new home)! it didnt take very long to unload everything. we basically put it all in the garage for now. we did put my bedroom suit in our middle bedroom. after unloading the guys headed to my parents house to unload a few things and my mom and i went to get dinner. after dinner nicholas finally got to take the truch back about 8:30 pm. it was a VERY VERY long day!

nicholas' parents spent the night with us friday night. his mom helped me out tremendously on saturday by washing and folding clothes and helping me put them away. nicholas and his dad put up our new mailbox and piddled around outside. they left after lunch and headed back to excel. my parents came later that afternoon and my mom and i tackled the kitchen. she is the most organized perfectionist in the world! we got a whole lot done on saturday!

sunday we slept late, went to see maw-maw, and made our first trip to lowes. it has been sooooo much fun putting our stuff in the house and making it our own! i loved being able to pick out flowers to go on our porches. it was also fun getting rid of all the fake flowers in the house and putting real ones in. i have always HATED fake flowers/plants because in my opinion all they do is collect dust. the house was full of them! i got rid of all of them very quickly! there were also birds everywhere! we are slowly getting rid of them too. i love the duck and fish decor but NOT birds...i dont know why.

we could not be a happier couple! we are soooooo blessed! we only work 3 days a week so the other 4 we are able to stay at home and enjoy our beautiful, cozy new house! i actually enjoyed cleaning house monday morning while nicholas mowed the grass...i have NEVER in my life enjoyed cleaning! i feel like our lives are complete for now. there is nothing else in this world we could ever want or need. wednesday was a great day!! i slept late first of all then got up and played outside all day! i layed out on the patio for a little while, watched nicholas plant tomato plants, played with molly, fished, sat on the back porch and started reading my new book, cooked a roast for dinner, had mom and dad over to for dinner...life could not be better! neither one of us wanted to leave and come to work yesterday evening! i guess we had to come back to the real world sooner or later.

i know i am totally rambling but so much has happened over the past week. im sure i am leaving lots of stuff out! i did get a little sunburnt on wednesday and i did wear sunscreen! it's gonna be hard controlling my sun exposure now! i am going to want to be outside all the time! molly absolutely loves her new home! she has gotten to play outside a whole lot since we moved! although...we took her down to the pier wednesday while we were fishing. she usually is very well behaved, but her curiosity got to her and she jumped off the pier. my heart sank to my feet! luckily...the water is on the low side right now and she jumped where there is no water, but she did run right under the pier down to the water to check it out. i always have my eyes on her but i turned around for a second and when i turned back around she was gone. of course i ran and jumped right off the pier behind her like any mommy would do. needless to say she got a spankin and a good talkin to. she is way too brave!! that night was the first time she has ever smelt like a dog! she got a good bath after playing outside all day! it has been real stormy here and like i said...we are both working tonight, so dad came and got molly before we left for work and took her to their house. i think they may actually babysit her all weekend, so we can get some rest during the day. i actually shed a tear after he took her because she has never spent the night away from home before. i know you all think i am absolutely ridiculous but she is our baby!! i know they will take very good care of her. she loves her nana and papa and allie too (my parents dog). allie just doesnt care too much for molly. i am going to miss her. i might have to see her before sunday gets here.

our neighbors and friends have been so kind and wonderful! fweida (my best friends mom) brought us homemade butterfinger icecream on sunday...my favorite! i have pretty much eaten it all by myself! im sad because it's almost gone! two other neighbors have brought us goodies too! its encouraging and comforting to know we have such nice people around us. they told us all about everyone that lives on our street. everyone sounds like great people. there is a rainbow city policeman that lives a few doors down but we havent met him yet. i honestly feel safe where we are! i have never felt that way living in birmingham and my parents are only 10 minutes away, so i think i'll be okay when i am home by myself.

we dont have internet at the house yet or i would have posted sooner. i know i have left out lots of lovely details but i just dont have the time right now to get them all in. i promise i will try to do better from now on! i just want everyone to know that everything went very smoothly with the move and we couldnt be happier! i guess i should get back to work now! my babies need me!

i hope you have a very safe and blessed weekend!

Monday, March 23, 2009

closing wednesday...moving friday!!

wow...i havent updated in a while! we have been very busy! last week my grandmother got put in the hospital so we rushed home last thursday so i could stay with her and give my mom a break. she is still in the hospital but is doing better and will hopefully get out soon!

BIG NEWS!! we close on our house this wednesday...my birthday!! we are VERY excited. although...we both have to work tuesday night...im just not looking forward to being tired all day. im trying to find someone to work part of the shift for me! we are doing a walk through at the house at 1:00 pm and we will close at 2:00. we plan on taking some of my dishes and a few other things and staying in the house wednesday night. we will come back to bham on thursday to finish packing up and then move everything on friday! nicholas' parents will be coming up to help us! we will be ready for company on saturday!!!

it has been fun thinking about what colors we want to paint a couple of the bedrooms and shopping for outdoor stuff. we bought some tiki torches the other day to put down along the river bank. just pray that its pretty this weekend...i think there's a chance of rain!

i have been a horrible friend lately. we have been sooo busy and i have been sooo tired i havent even talked to any of my friends. i am going to try to do better. work has kicked my butt the past couple of weeks! i had the worst night ever at work last wednesday night. i had a very very sick baby who didnt make it. it was a very long week! i came in to work early tonight for a friend, so pray that i make it till 8:00 am. i guess i should get back to work. i will try to post again soon! we are going to have a busy week!

i hope everyone has a BLESSED week!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

another night in the rnicu!

ahhhh...finally a quiet night in the regional neonatal intensive care! after a very intense night thursday, i requested to go into our isolation room all by myself and have 2 babies. our acuity is VERY high right now! its like a zoo around here! when people think about the neonatal intensive care they automatically think of premature babies that fit in the palm of your hand, which is the majority of what we see. here at uab we have lots of cardiac babies as well! we actually get all of the cardiac babies here! they are usually bigger babies and for the most part term babies...they just have different heart defects and usually need surgery/surgeries. we also see lots of random/rare things around here! anything from conjoined twins, lots of multiple births (no octuplets though), major chromosomal defects, babies born with missing limbs or organs, lots of downs syndrome babies (they usually have a heart defect too), etc...just to name a few. my favorite are usually the preemies, although i have gotten very attached to several heart babies in the past. there was baby gabe who had a rare heart/lung defect! we became very attached. he passed away in december. baby luke was my first attachment in the rnicu! he was a heart baby and he passed away in june 2008. they both fought with all they had, but our great GOD was ready to take them home and make them perfect little angels! there have been lots of preemies! parker and madison come to mind first! they were both tiny little bundles of joy!



there is no way on earth to describe what my job is like! you have to come and see it for yourself! we see babies come and go so often. sometimes the situation is heartbreaking and unbearable to think about, but there are joyous times as well...when you get to see them go home with their mommy's and daddy's. i have the most rewarding job anyone could ask for! people make fun of me around here because i am so nice and talkative to my families and they all love me. i could not imagine being a parent and having a baby up here. it is soooo stressful!

there is no greater feeling knowing that a mom and dad can sleep at night because they know you are taking great care of their most precious gift.i absolutely love what i do even though at times it is extremely mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausting all at the same time!

i think with every person and every job, you have those horrific/nightmare nights or days and you think to yourself...nights like that make me want to quit my job. i have had several, but after a little griping and complaining i put on my big girl panties and come right back into work the next night and fall in love with my job all over again.

i knew since i was 13 years old that i wanted to be a neonatal nurse. God placed a set of premature twin boys into my care, and i totally fell in love with them. i was blessed to have such clarity and assurance in what God wanted me to do with my life! i am also blessed to have such amazing parents who made my dream possible and put me through school. my mom, dad, and sister were my number one cheerleaders too! they heard a whole lot of complaining, crying, yelling, and the exhaustion in my voice. they never gave up on me and i never gave up on myself!

i am sitting here now looking at my two sick little babies wishing i could miraculously make them all better, so they could go home where they belong. no baby deserves to suffer and go through what they have to endure, BUT like me...GOD has a huge plan for their lives! i do not know how any family could survive this place and not have faith in my Jesus! He is the Great Physician!

like i said earlier...preemies are my favorite. babies are considered premature from 22 weeks to usually 36 weeks. we have to go to ALL high risk deliveries here. if they come as early as 22-24 weeks their eyes are usually still fused, their skin is gelatinous, and you can see every little vein in their body. they are sooo fragile! everything about them is premature. their lungs, heart, eyes, ears, skin, kidneys, liver, EVERYTHING! we are their lifeline...we breath for them, keep their tiny little hearts beating, keep their bellies from dying, keep them warm and moist, give them nutrition through an iv, etc...i could go on for hours. i have had babies as small as 12 ounces...they fit in the palm of my hand. all i can do is pray that God will grow and heal their bodies. i LOVE my babies! but we not only take care of the babies, we take care of their families and sometimes that is the hardest part!



i guess the point is...i love my job! God has put me here for a very special reason and He is using me in a very special way! that thought makes me very excited!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

a pedicure makes everything better!!

i had a great pedicure today! although the massage chair bout threw me in the floor a few times! it also kept squeezing the devil out of my rear end...i couldnt figure out how to make it stop, so i just sucked it up and dealt with it. it was kinda funny! my toes look much better! it's amazing how much better i feel after sleeping till 1:00 pm today, doing a lil shopping by myself, and a nice pedicure! nicholas played golf with some of his buddies, so i decided i would do something that i enjoy doing!

i found a great shop in cahaba heights called 'the nesting place'. they have the cutest home decor! i could have gone crazy but i did good! i bought 3 beach mats that were 50% off! i can use them on our pier and whenever we go to the beach! they had soooo much stuff that would look cute at our new house! we are excited about buying stuff for the outdoors! we are looking for adirondack chairs for the pier, tiki torches, plants, etc. its sooo much fun! we dont really have a yard where we are now and the AHA takes care of the lawn and stuff. we are excited about playing outside all the time!

we are going to the beach with my family the end of june!! my parents, suz and heath, and me n nicholas. we are very excited about it!! i have been to the beach with his family a couple of times but he has never been with mine! he's in for a treat! we always have the best time!

i started doing some packing tonight! it made me even more excited for some reason! i guess because it makes it "for real". i really didnt do much...i just started with picture frames and all of the pictures that were hanging on the walls. most of what we will be taking is kitchen stuff and furniture. so its mostly big things. its getting closer! bout 2 weeks away!!

thats enough for now...i gotta go fold clothes (my most favorite chore)!! have a good one!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

frustrated but stayin strong!

today was very hard! i dont even know how to describe how i feel about it! i woke up around 10:30 and nicholas had breakfast ready so i could eat and take my antibiotic. i didnt want to get up. i think the antibiotic im taking for that test is making me really tired! so i ate bfast and then went back to sleep on the couch with molly till about 12:00. oh yea...i had a small breakdown before going back to sleep and molly was so sweet...she licked my tears away! she's so perfect! my husband is too! he has been so strong for me!

my parents got here about 1:00pm and drove us to the kirklin clinic for my test. we got there on time at 2pm and they took me back pretty quickly. although i had to wait forever once i got back there. i started out in a waiting room with 2 women who honestly talked my ears off!! one of them was 44 years old, has a 13 year old son, and for some reason now wants another baby. what i didnt inform her of is that i take care of sick babies and most we see from women that age do not turn out so well. she got a good report, so i guess i might be seeing her in the next year or so in the rnicu. the other lady was older as well. she has 4 older children not by her current husband, so she wants a baby with him now. i wanted to tell her the same thing.

what i didnt tell them is that i am almost 24 years old, have had one major surgery which has already reduced my chances of having kids by 50%, and i have always wanted kids, and now i dont know if it is going to be physically possible to do it on our own. i guess i am being way too hard on myself, and i guess i might be a lil bit jealous of others. its an extremely hard situation to be in! i just love babies SOOO much! i was quite nervous and emotional today. after they had both gone back i was left sitting there by myself for quite some time. i did a lot of praying and reflecting! i believe God's word when He tells us that if we delight ourselves in Him, He will give us the desires of our heart!! enough about the waiting room...

i went back for the test and they said that once i was prepped nicholas could come back. i had to answer lots of questions and here the not so fun risks of the test...the worst being i could get a pulmonary embolus (if you dont know...that can kill you), so if i got short of breath to let them know. the doctors and nurse that were there were very nice and comforting. they started what they had to do which was extremely unpleasant feeling! i was terribly uncomforable and began to cry. the nurse tried to comfort me, but for some reason i just got worse. the typical way they normally do the test was not working, so they tried a different catheter. i wont go into to many details but they are supposed to insert a catheter and shoot dye into my uterus to see where all it flows (to see whats open). the problem was that they could not even get the catheter in far enough to shoot the dye in. after being tortured and somewhat embarrassed i was having a total come apart. they did let nicholas come in earlier than they had planned to hold my hand.

needless to say the test was not done after all that waiting and torture. i have made an appointment with my doctor for march 20th to talk to him about what to do. they can give me some medicine to help with the procedure, but i just dont know if i am going to be ready anytime soon to go through it all again. the anticipation was horrible! we may end up waiting a while since we are not going to be ready to have kids anytime soon. we also have enough going on in our lives right now...i just want to enjoy being happy and being newlyweds right now and not worry about what could be wrong.

everyone knows that i am a FIRM believer that everything happens for a reason! there's a reason i didnt get any answers today! God is taking care of me and nicholas in a very special way! i feel like we are only stronger because of what we've been through. i love my life and everything about it. all of this is just a little hard to understand sometimes.

i serve and incredible GOD!! He has blessed me with the most amazing husband, parents, sister and brother in law, grandmother, cousins, aunts and uncles and incredible friends who i know are continually praying for us! my parents have been here through it all and have been great! my sister is my number one prayer warrior and number one chearleader! she has been right by my side in spirit every step of the way.

its wierd because my sister and my dad have both told me that they believe the reason they couldnt do it today is because God is still working and healing my left fallopian tube. maybe it just isnt ready to be disturbed. i totally believe that it's possible!

we will see where the Lord leads in the next few months! in the meantime...im going to quit feeling sorry for myself and for get about it all! i am going to be excited about moving into our new house and start packing up the one we are in now!

i believe with all of my heart that God has an incredible plan for our lives and He will continue to give us the strength and peace we need to carry on! i am sooooo blessed!

Monday, March 9, 2009

a lil bit anxious!

i have to admit that i am a lil bit nervous about my test today at 2 pm. i have done very well trying not to think about it and being strong, but deep down inside i think there is quite a bit of anxiety. i do believe with all of my heart that God is taking care of me and nicholas, and that whatever happens 'His will' will be done! I am reminded of a song i learned when i was little. It goes something like this....

"He's still working on me, to make me what i ought to be. It took Him just a week to make the moon and the stars, the sun and the earth, and jupiter and mars. How loving and patient He must be, He's still working on me."

why of all the songs in the world...i dont know why exactly that one comes to mind. i guess here lately i have been realizing how imperfect i am as a human being. God will be working in my life as long as i live!! i never in a million years thought i would ever be sick, have to go into the hospital, and have a major surgery! especially only about a month and a half after i got married. I know God has a wonderful reason for everything like i have said before, but sometimes its just hard to "let go, and let God." i think i all too often try to take matters into my own hands and do things my own way! i have so much faith and believe with all of my heart that today will go well.

i started an antibiotic on sunday and will continue to take it for several days after the test. i have been warned that it can make me pretty sick if certain things happen. i am prepared for whatever happens. nothing could possibly worse than the pain i felt back in december! whatever the results of the test may be...we are prepared for what lies ahead!! i have the greatest God in the world who loves me for me, is patient with me even though im stubborn, and has an incredible will for mine and nicholas' lives.

thank you all for your thoughts and prayers! we continue to be blessed everyday! i have the most amazing husband in the world and we love being married!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

wonderful weekend!

we have had a GREAT weekend! suzy and heath got to gadsden late friday night! we took them to see our new house saturday morning at 10:30, and we got to meet the previous owners! they are incredible and very generous people! they are from georgia and the only reason they are selling their house is because it is not big enough for all of their children and grandchildren. they have purchased a piece of land in the southside/ohatchee area to build a bigger house on the river. they say this will be their last house to build...they will be retiring there. they are also trying to sell their house in georgia. they were just very nice!

it's time for us to start packing up again! it seems like we just got finished unpacking and moving into our townhouse! i am trying to get organized and make lots of lists, so the move will go as smoothly as possible! we will be closing on march 25th and moving on march 27th!

nicholas, dad, mom, molly and me went out to the house earlier this afternoon and the guys fished off the pier and mom and i sat on the back porch and just talked! dad and nicholas caught several fish in the little time we were there! it made them very proud! we headed back to bham shortly after that and came through ashville...the way we will be going to work...it only took about 45 minutes at the most! not as bad as i thought it would be!

i guess i should wrap it up and get to work. i hope everyone has a WONDERFUL week!

Friday, March 6, 2009

waiting...

i am SOOO ready for my suzy and heath to get here!! nicholas and i came to mom and dads this weekend because they are going to be home for a couple of days! they havent met molly yet so they are excited about meeting her! im trying to stay awake till they get here!

today was a GREAT day! we met the home inspector at our "soon to be" house!! the inspection went better than we could have expected which it should have gone well because the house is less than 2 years old. there were only 3 things that need to be fixed and the owners are going to do it all. they seem like really nice people. they are in town this weekend to get what they are taking from the house. we are actually taking suz and heath to see it in the morning so we will get to meet them! i am excited! they arent taking much with them. they are leaving all of the furniture, most of the paintings, all the stuff in the kitchen, all appliances, pretty much everything stays! it is a newlyweds dream house. although we have tons of our own stuff! we will be having a massive yard sale! if anyone needs anything you think we might have let us know! we could work out a deal!

we are really excited about everything thats going on. all of this house buying business is totally new for us, but it has all gone way to smoothly! its nice and relaxing being at mom and dads for a couple of days! we have been pretty tired so im looking forward to getting some rest!

hope everyone has a GREAT weekend! i know im going to!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

happy thursday! i am so tired after working last night! although it was the best night at work in a while! i love my job! i take care of babies that weigh just a few ounces up to 12 or 13 pounds. my favorite are the tiny lil preemies...they never cease to amaze me! ok...enough about work!

molly went to the doctor today and got her last round of shots, thank goodness! i think i hate it worse than she does. she did great though! we love our vet here in cahaba heights and are going to be sad to leave him when we move! we probably will bring her back to him to get her fixed in may. im not looking forward to leaving her there over night!

like i said a few sentences ago..."when we move". we found out yesterday that we got approved for a loan on our house! we are VERY excited! its located in rainbow city in riddles bend...right on the river! now all we need is a boat! if anyone knows of a good used boat for sale please let me know! my parents and family couldnt be happier that we are moving back. i never thought i would end up back at home. it is the perfect house on the perfect lot though! we know its where we are meant to be for now. as of right now we are supposed to close on my birthday march 25! we plan on having many parties and we love company, so come visit us!

i am sad about leaving my friends in birmingham...we have tons of friends here now between work, school, and everything else. there are other little things that i will miss as well, but i'm ready for a change! we will not miss the traffic, the hugeness, and again...the traffic! i will have to get used to driving back and forth again but i think it will work for a little while. i may try to go part time at uab and pick up something in gadsden one or two days a week. nicholas will probably start traveling very soon which we are very excited about! he has been ready to travel for a long time now!

last but not least...i will be going back to the doctor next tues at 2:00 for my test. please pray that everything goes well! i have actually found a peace in knowing that God has a much bigger plan for our lives than we do and there is absolutely no reason for me to worry and stress. i cant control what happens, but i rest assured that "God works for the good of those that love Him who are called according to His purpose." thank you for all of your prayers!

we have a busy weekend ahead! we will head to gadsden in the morning for our house inspection. and we are even more excited about suzy and heath coming home! they will be meeting ms. molly for the very first time! molly is excited too! i am also excited about the very large vera bradley bag we bought molly tonight for all of her stuff! i will admit...she is already totally rotten!!

i guess thats enough for now. i can barely hold my eyes open! hope everyone has a wonderful friday!!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

my first post! wow...i have no clue where to begin! so much is going on in our lives right now! as newlyweds we have already been through so much together, and it has all only made us stronger as individuals and as husband and wife!! i will start with a few random facts to try and catch you up on our lives!

~ we became husband and wife october 25, 2008! the greatest day of our lives!
~ had the most amazing honeymoon in st. lucia
~ we are currently renting a brand new townhouse in cahaba heights, alabama which was totally built for looks and is totally falling apart
~ december 16, 2008 was the worst/scariest day of my life. nicholas took me to the emergency room where i spent 17 hours in excruciating pain and found out i had a raging infection.
~ december 18 i had surgery to remove my right fallopian tube and my appendix.
~ i am blessed with the most incredible husband in the entire universe who is patient, understanding, comforting, oh i could go on forever. he is the best!
~ if it were not for my incredible parents i dont know what we would have done during that not so fun time!
~ im better now!! i go back to the doctor next week to find out if my left fallopian tube still works. please say a huge prayer!
~ i've always wanted lots of kids
~ my amazing sister and her husband live in lafayette louisiana which is way too far away. i miss them terribly.
~ january 13 we got our very high maintenance child, MOLLY, who was only 8 weeks old! she is the best puppy in the world. she makes us very happy.
~ my best friend ashleigh is getting married august 22nd and i am extremely excited about it!
~ nicholas is going to start doing some travel nursing very soon and make lots of money...we hope!
~ im going to keep my job at uab in the neonatal intensive care for now. i love my job!!
~BIG NEWS!! we are in the process of buying a house in rainbow city and its on the RIVER!! we couldnt be more excited!
~ nicholas and i are so blessed to have each other and to have such wonderful friends and family!

i am just learning about this whole blog thing. we just have so many exciting things going on in our lives right now i wanted to be able to share it all with you! i will try to keep it current!

1 Corinthians 13:13 "And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."